Orgasmic energy

Every Saturday night (for the last 2 months or so) I’ve been hanging out with my friends for a beautiful, energetic get-together in which we call “Next Saturday.” It’s called Next Saturday because we like the idea of Saturday continuing to infinity and beyond. It’s every Saturday, not every other… however, the title sort of explains our obsession with infinite possibilities.

Some Next Saturdays are more intense than others, and last night was beyond phenomenal. Last night was one of the most… amazing… sexy… spiritual, and orgasmic experiences of my life. I’m running out of adjectives and those don’t even do it justice. I suppose it could have been described as cerebral, considering I became very intimate with the scientific theories of Stephen Hawking… I suppose it even could have been described as somewhat hilarious, considering I couldn’t stop laughing at the silliest of things, and my body would react to every word said to me. Words cannot express what I experienced and how it has impacted me. I spent who-knows-how many hours convulsing in these shockwaves of unexplained orgasmic pleasure. It was like I could see this white ball of light above my forehead and my muscles would spasm uncontrollably as the light would become more and more intense. My stomach, this morning, is surprisingly sore. It feels like I’ve done 5000 situps, which I kind of did, due to those energy spasms. I remember visualizing an electric ball of burning light on the edge of my fingertips and it became so intense that when my fingers touched another person, I would feel these shocks (I remember feeling shocks very similar to static) within my body and it would shoot out of me from my stomach to the top of my head. I’m feeling a little dizzy today… but ohhh so good. It had NEVER felt so wonderful feeling hands on my body. Men… women… genderless love. It was a spiritually humbling experience to interact with their hands… loving… tender hands… filled with galvanizing energy. I touched the “connection to source” so strong, that the muscles in my body would immediately react to each and every feeling around me. I felt love in a completely new way. I’ve felt this before… but last night… it became quite more intense. I must say… I don’t recall ever orgasming for that many people as they watched me. I literally had no control. Oh I fucking loved it. I wanna do it again. *melts* I am in heaven. Don’t pinch me. Leave me here. I’ve never felt so at peace.

There were moments that left me thinking about knowledge. At what point does a person learn all they need to learn in life? Just how many of US are there in the universe who all think and learn the same things and what happens when we all apply the knowledge differently to experience oneness? Is oneness different for each person, or is there a universal conversation in which once you fall into it, you begin to spin, turn, and feel held by billions of energetic entities. I felt as if I was flowing with a universal presence, being pulled into a giant spiral of golden white light representing oneness. It had the force of a black hole as it sucked me into it… and yet… had the gentleness of the softest lips, whispers, touches. I was touched so deeply last night… physically, mentally, spiritually. I absolutely CANNOT for the life of me imagine ANYTHING stronger or more powerful than the experience of undeniable infinity that I experienced last night. I learned that a person cannot have “too much love” and therefore abundance of positivity can only be intensified with the right people. I know it sounds SO weird to say this, but I feel like I’ve pre-met all my friends. That somehow I met them in the future, to tell them to meet me in the past… and they’re all here in the present. It’s like I created them to know me. I feel as though on some cosmic level, I’m learning how to work with magic and manifestation to really make things happen to completion. Last night… and this is what was so amazing to me… I feel as though I finally manifested the spiritual oneness I always envisioned.

On another note… there’s something else I’ve been secretly wanting to experience. Suppose it won’t be secret anymore as I type this out. I’m drawn to the idea of being in love with and having sex a woman (no big surprise there) who feels a deep connection with me. The catch is… I want a man who loves and/or admires both of us to be in the bed with us. I haven’t pictured myself having sex with him in my dreams, but I love the idea of being held by him while watching her fuck him while she looks at me. I can’t explain it. Last night, when I experienced the genderless oneness experience, I somehow found the ball of light that separates men from women… and in a cognitive sense, it felt as if I was spinning in and out of the ball and so many genders were shooting out from all ends of it like rays of light. I sound like a crazy person, I know. But for me… this was very real and I’ll remember it for the rest of my life.

By the way, if any of you saw the free video blog to “Party with Isabella” then you may recall seeing some of my Next Saturday friends within the video (with their permission of course). We try to keep fairly private with what we do during these parties, so it really depends on people’s personal preferences whether or not a video camera is introduced during our play. I’ll ask and see if any of them would be willing to be filmed on video (or at least hold the camera) so you could see what goes on during our unpredictable time.

Love
Isabella
xoxoxoox