Not only do I love the show for the amazing dance moves, but what really does it for me is the personal connections to the contestants. There’s a level of personalism and “getting to know them” that allows me to feel their pain if they fail… or feel their pleasure if they succeed. And I suppose one really important element that I continually learn from – is how to handle rejection.

When I was a poet-writer many years ago, I sent submissions to thousands of books, magazines, and publications and received hundreds of rejection letters. I used to frame my rejection letters sometimes just to prove to myself it was worth the struggle. When I received my first “yes” to publication, my heart stopped. And I can only assume that’s how those dancers often feel when they’re told to move on to the next round. Between the ages of 14-18, I was published in about 300 different publications and by the age of 19, I published my own book of poetry under a different pen name. But until that point, just the act of trying to get my work noticed… was heat too intense for flames. Now I can appreciate the coolness of it. This show is like icing for me. I love watching people succeed. And I love even MORE watching people who were rejected years ago… work hard… and harder… and hardest… to come back and make it on the show. I love seeing people who work hard for the things they want.

I must admit, I do cringe when a contestant starts giving excuses for their behavior or starts talking too much to the judges. One thing I’ve humbly learned over the years is when to shut up and just surrender to the masters. There are students and there are teachers. If a student is humble enough to trust the knowledge being offered to them, they are sure to shine for the rest of their lives. While it’s perfectly encouraged to question advice and learnings privately, it’s quite another to be confrontational to those trying to teach you.

Speaking of learning… later on this month, I’m going to begin taking Reiki classes.

Love
Isabella
xoxoxoox

This ONE-HOUR erotic hypnosis recording will intellectually stimulate your mind deep into negative infinity, as you fall into universal worm holes in space, defying gravity, and becoming part of space time.

If you have already listened to the Zero Gravity series, you will have a greater appreciation of the quantum level this mp3 will take you. This combines quantum physics, mathematics, black holes, scientific theories, parallel universes, sexual energy, infinite love, divine wisdom and understanding, and appreciation of Goddess energy into a beautiful, soothing recording. Isabella makes mathematics sounds sexy as she counts down the negative numbers of the universe, multiplying them as you increase your sexual awareness and own personal wisdom.

This mp3 is designed for all genders, so men, women, and transgenders can all achieve a deep level of trance. If you have an IQ that is higher than average and consider yourself to be great at self-hypnosis, then this is essential for your collection. I have a feeling that many self-identified “geeks” may consider this to be their favorite. I’m a geek, what can I say. And by the way, intelligence is sexy, so if you own this recording, you’re pretty damn smart.

Recording includes:
Erotic hypnosis, Lea~Koa, infinite wisdom, logic, reasoning, understanding, algebra, quantum physics, parallel universes, scientific theories, subtle erotic undertones, sexual awareness, increase of intelligence and knowledge, infinity, negative infinity, number countdowns, hypnotic deepeners, empowerment, confidence, tapping into a higher Goddess power, and self-reflection.

Note: There are two versions of this mp3 and you will receieve both of them for the price of one. Version one is 60 minutes and contains many binaural audio sounds which move from one ear to the next, so be sure to wear stereo headphones to hear the full effects! During the last 8 minutes, the primary vocals have been removed to give you time for self-reflection. Version two is 52 minutes long without binaural audio and without sound effects. It has no moment of silence at the end and is a great alternative option for those who like the simplicity of my voice without all the effects.

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Sound Quality: Professional First-Rate
Vocal Sound Effects: Yes
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Length: 60 minutes
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About a week ago, I discovered… the Monroe County Public library: a world of infinite knowledge and wisdom within three beautiful stories of bliss. I almost had an orgasm when I realized how many free books I could read and check out! The subjects offered in the public library are far more vast than any other library I’ve ever experienced. Considering I spent a major percentage of my childhood and adulthood within bookstores and libraries, this completely overwhelmed me to see such a mind-blowing building filled with all the topics I enjoy. To most people, the act of walking in a library is nothing new. You borrow books, you return them. No big deal, right? Wrong. For me, simply the act of walking INTO the library immediately increases my IQ points by at least 20 points. I just feel smarter when I walk into a bookstore or library. I find myself fascinated by new subject matter and topics that will expand my thinking. For me, nothing is sexier than intelligence. That being said, everyone within the library is also incredibly sexy to me. I don’t know why books turn me on so much, they just do. And now that I’ve been introduced to this massive library, I feel as though someone has put a vibrator in my panties and said to me, “That’s right. You can have as much of this as you want and it won’t cost you a penny.”

Within those library walls, I recovered a piece of myself  that had previously been shrouded in confusion. To move or not to move. To attend IU or not attend. The decision, while simple in delivery, is quite complex in beginning action stages. My goal is to begin attending IU within 1-2 weeks. Step one is to get my transcript from my other college and make sure this one has it. Second step is finding out registration times. If I’ve missed the cutoff time for Winter or Spring, then no problem. I’ll start out with online courses that way I can begin asap. Thanks to several generous customers, I already have all the textbooks I need for 4 courses.

So why this sudden re-interest in college? Oh boy. How do I say this. Not only was I introduced to the main county library, which by its own standard is highly impressive, I also discovered the Taj Majal of information. Kinsey Institute has a library. Fucking unbelievable. The Kinsey Institute Library. By golly, I’m going to attend IU if it’s the last thing I do in this world. That was the sole reason for me moving here. To study Kinsey’s work. To be exposed to exclusive, confidential, and private sexual research that cannot be browsed by public eyes. I WANT IN! Just the thought of me being in a library filled with books on gender, sex, reproduction, gender-roles, GLBT, and all the other sexual topics I find intriguing, fills a destiny in me that absolutely cannot be put into words. Although I’m still undecided on whether or not I’ve lived a past life before, I often wonder if my previous life involved sex research or if I worked with Kinsey (or maybe I was Alfred Kinsey himself) many years ago. Nothing comes more natural to me. Gender research and studying human sexuality roles comes as naturally to me as hypnosis and NLP, so that’s saying a lot. It’s what I want to do with my life. Study sex. I’ve said it for years, and I know a lot of you have heard me rant about this (even in my audio blogs) for a long, long time. This week, my life will begin to change all over again.

Knowing that I’m about to take on the research of sexuality head-on, I’m also opening myself up to the possibility of also taking quantum physics courses (as you all know my ridiculous obsession with the subject of probability and plausibility within quantum physics), and maybe even taking law courses. My friends often say they could easily see me being a lawyer, especially with my NLP background. I never really pondered the idea that I would venture into law, and it’s still unknown to me, however if I became a lawyer in the sex field, especially one who fights for the rights of sissies, transgenders, lesbian and gay couples, D/s couples, and those who have unconventional sexual relationships – I know I could win (and win big!) because it’s something I’m passionate about and it complements the direction my life is moving.

There’s no such thing as having too much knowledge. At this point, I really don’t even care about getting degrees (before that was all that was important to me). Right now, I just want to delve head-first into all the courses that interest me and let my intuition guide me along the path to increased happiness and success.

I suppose on a global level, achieving a doctorate in psychology would be my ultimate goal. However, right now, it’s important to me that I make correct decisions based on happiness rather than expectation. In any other previous circumstance, I would have kicked myself for not knowing what I want. Usually I’m the kind of person who is very anxious, urgent, and lives life in accordance to perfectionism and have-all-or-nothing. Today, I’m proud that I’ve learned the art of patience and that it’s ok to take small steps to get to the big goal. My zen only lives happily when I take the time to thoroughly read life’s article, instead of skimming it just to say it’s been read.

Love
Isabella
xoxooxox