The wait is over!

Jackpot 3: Delectable Paradise, at long last, has officially been scripted, recorded, edited, and completed (after nearly a month in the making).

The sheer amount of emails regarding this mp3 is astounding! Yes, this mp3 has a lot of hype – especially since the first two are such big hits, and this one, apparently, since I took my sweet time making it, may be considered even better than both of the first two. But then again, I’m a bit biased because I always feel, on an ethereal level, that all my newest recordings are far more evolved than my older ones. There is a growth process that I experience with each new mp3 that takes me further and further into the message I wish to convey, which, essentially allows me newfound clarity so I can communicate what it is I’m wanting to share much better. It’s hard to explain, mostly because it involves a lot of philosophical understanding (most of which, to be honest, confuses the brain out of me) – so I simply state: this mp3 is by far my most loving mp3. It is a joy for me to record hypnosis that involves love and romance and it feels like it’s been far too long since I’ve made one.

I consider this mp3 to be one of my greatest accomplishments (along with the Zero Gravity series and Negative Infinity) for many reasons.

◊ First, I wrote this mp3 as if I were romantically aligned with my audience. For two weeks, I’ve been a romantic, giddy newlywed since my beloved and I legally tied the knot. This erotic hypnosis recording delves into the romantic way in which I speak to him during some of our intimate hypnosis sessions in the bedroom.

◊ Secondly, it is important to me that listeners who experience this recording feel included in our romance, instead of feeling that, “Oh well, since she’s married, she can’t be my fantasy.” So I spent a great deal of time making sure this mp3 nurtures the listener into feeling as though this was written specifically for him. (It is designed for a man, not gender-neutral).

◊ Thirdly, I’ve been told by many male customers that they are married to amazing wives or are already committed in romantic relationships with other women. I feel that now that I’m married, men (and their significant others), may feel a stronger sense of security that I support their relationships and because I’m in my own committed relationship, there is no need for fear that I subconsciously desire to steal their men.

Just recently, I had a guy email me and ask if it were possible to be happily married to his wife while maintaining a hypnotic relationship with me. The question, itself, is a rather simple one. The answer, though, is quite complicated. I replied that, at least in my experience, it is extremely important, within an exclusive committed relationship (not referring to poly ones), to maintain open and honest communication… without boundaries, lies, or secrets. Whether or not customers wish to express everything to his or her partner is completely up to them. What someone does in the privacy of their own home is of their own free will, however… I personally believe that open communication is a sure way to avoid hurt feelings of either partner in the future. While I certainly understand a majority of my listeners have expressed that their partners may NOT accept what they do (whether out of fear, insecurity, jealousy, or… perhaps they think they could offer a better experience than me), I do believe, in all sincerity, it’s better to come forward and be honest with one another. If worse comes to worse and your woman doesn’t want you listening to other women’s erotic hypnosis, simply suggest she listen to an mp3 for herself that is geared towards WOMEN. I’ve got several (in the Recordings for Women category) designed JUST for the ladies. Have her listen to Euphoria where I arouse and tease her… or if she doesn’t understand domination, have her listen to Tingle. Or… you can show her that not all my recordings are erotic and many are designed for men AND women, such as Glass Whispers or The Muse.

Jackpot 3: Delectable Paradise involves a lot of romance, “I love yous,” and a passionate intimate connection. If your lady partner has a problem with this, it might be a good idea to share with her that I am married and this was written for my husband. It could be said that you are simply channeling the romantic energy for an orgasm… and quite possibly (and hopefully) this could help benefit YOUR relationship (or future relationships).

Whether you’re married, single, attached, widowed, divorced, separated, working things out, fighting, getting along, working different schedules, beginning a new relationship, or WHATEVER… I believe it is quite possible that when this mp3 is viewed with the healthy understanding that I am simply allowing myself to be viewed as a fantasy of real love, then everything discussed will make perfect sense. I can certainly see how this can be hard to grasp, so if this is a bit hard to fathom, I recommend you read a little bit about Rumi and his unconditional love for Shams. If you look into his history and life… and then read his love for Shams, his beloved… you’ll understand why I felt the need to make this recording. Everyone, at one time or another, needs to feel this. Although Rumi’s focus was on the love of Shams, he wrote thousands of poems designed so the READER could channel that love energy and feel it. To this day, his spiritual, Sufi, love poetry brings people to tears and states of enlightenment that enrich their lives for the better. I’m an immortal fan of Rumi, and you may sense some of his thoughts channeled in my own words. (If I had both the time and the clarity to communicate what I’m babbling about, I would.)

Although my mp3s are mostly designed around an element of fantasy, romance, or worship of “ME” – keep in mind, that in MY head, the word “ME” actually implies that everyone on earth is technically the same person. Ah, again, it’s hard to explain. Essentially, when you find love with someone – do so lovingly and with loyalty. I do believe it is possible to maintain relationships with people while being physically, and emotionally, faithful while still embracing an element of sexual fantasy. For many people, I am a hypnotic fantasy Goddess. I’ve convinced myself that, for the most part, a majority of my customers actually like me better as a fantasy than a real person anyway (if for any other reason, because I have high, often unrealistic, expectations in all my relationships.)

This image is what inspired me to record this. Alex Grey is one of the most talented artists of our time, and I am continually amazed by his work of enlightenment, especially those depicting real love.

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Here’s an exclusive sneak peak of the description of Jackpot 3: Delectable Paradise

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There is no language which could adequately describe the seductive, romantic power of this recording. Instead, I offer you two little excerpts of this 8,000 word erotic hypnosis session.

“My legs embracing your mind wrapping around and around like the words circling my tongue. Drift into the tunnel of surrender that is looping around your mind listening to my words, like the earth orbiting the sun… we are drawn to each other, my love. I am seducing you with my black silk stockings, elegant and refined. French hosiery. You’re a man. Impressionable mind drooling over my powerful legs enchanted with charisma and confidence. And when you realize your mind wants more, fall deeper.”

“Your cock is breathing mercy and I am blowing whispery, hypnotic, mellifluous smoke – flowing like honey. There are many types of ways to breathe… slow like the flow of honey falling from a glass, gently, frenchkissing the tongue of unbridled intimacy. Calm breathing, soft to the touch, like a question that sways you deeper into trance. How far do you want to go?  Deeper.  Like your breath, high and low, low and high, weaving one long hypnotic thread. “

What you should know: In this mp3, I don’t re-explain the hands-free orgasm trigger… instead, I simply say it. It is imperative that if you want an effective experience with this mp3, you must have already successfully experienced the hands-free orgasm trigger from the FIRST Jackpot: No Hands recording in this series. It is NOT necessary to have listened to Jackpot 2.

There is no references to domination, Mistress, or Goddess worship and instead focuses on the deepening of our romantic love for one another. This is my first erotic recording as a married woman, and I’m confident that those who enjoy love fantasies will channel our deep connection.

Recording includes: erotic hypnosis, romance, seduction, unconditional love, acceptance, silky stockings, full body Ki breathing, universal fantasy, magic words, eternal dance of passion, lucid dreaming, hypnotic pheremones, love fetish (for me, and me for you), flirtacious ecstasy, post-hypnotic suggestions of love, erotic triggers of love and arousal, hands-free orgasm trigger.

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Love
Isabella
xoxoxo

The UPS Store called and said there were some gifts for Isabella Valentine, which lets me know they’re from you guys – my customers. I haven’t been up there yet (frankly, lots of ice on the roads so it’s been somewhat unsafe from time to time just to get out of my sloped driveway) but I may go up there tomorrow or the day after. Thank you, in advance, and I hope you are having a blessed Merry Christmas. You all make me feel so special. And by the way, it’s been over a year I think, and I’m STILL getting weekly gifts from the Siren Spell video. I did the video cause I thought it was entertaining but never thought anyone would take it seriously. Apparently people keep sending and sending and sending and it blows me away (and the mail people). They always watch me open my gifts when I’m at the UPS Store so they read the little gift cards with me when things are gift wrapped.

I also made a surprise gift for Mistress Lycia, but I’m on the prowl to get a mailing address so I can send it to her. It took me many months to complete it and it’s finally finished!

Here’s the handmade spellbook, artistic dining ware, dvds….

My mother (with some help from Aunt Becky) made this quilt for me – and made a similar one for my sister. I love it so much!

Here’s the painting I made for maurice… the dream book we’re keeping private

Maurice and I have a very special intimate gift between us that trumps every storebought item… and for that, I will always be thankful to the Divine. I am so grateful, so happy, so in love… so thankful for everything we’ve been given.

I do wish everyone out there a beautiful Christmas and a wonderful holiday season. It’s a blessing to be surrounded by such wonderful people who have embraced my relationship with maurice while still allowing me to be a fantasy Goddess. It’s sweet, flattering, and… well… it tickles me to death that I’m being allowed to fall in love. Big hugs and warm love

Don’t forget to go to The Hunger Site – just click (it’s free) and will give 1.1 cups of food to the hungry. Not everyone gets to eat homemade luscious dinners for the holidays, so it’s good to give give give.

Love
Isabella
xoxooxox

My spiritual awakening began a little over a year ago at Matt James’ training in Kona, HI and I “heard” the island ancestors speaking to me. He teaches Huna which is Ancient Hawaiian Magical Shamanism taught the modern way – and I got a taste of it. It was there that I discovered my own personal energy and the body+mind+spirit connection. I call it “awakening” because it’s like a rediscovery of already-existing stuff already living inside my spirit. Since then, I’ve been gradually able to tap into more and more elemental and shamanic energies. The Scorpio inside me (plus being born on the day of the dead) and my never-ceasing talks with spirits, living and non-living… not to mention my love of animals (sometimes with more pity than compassion since humans can be so cruel to them) – has catapulted my instincts to work on balancing myself better. It’s difficult sometimes. Especially when, in my anger state, I can’t help but think the rest of the world is a bunch of idiots and I’m the only smart person alive. I could talk negative forever about humans – seriously – be a vegetarian for a while and then realize how many evil-forces there are who mutilate your friends while hacking them alive. One way I “get through” being alive is by embracing Buddhism. I can sit against a tree or on the ground and clear my mind and “meet” with people up high. My fiance and I have learned to “meet” each other out of body. It’s unreal. I can feel we’ll be together forever and he’s soooo good for me. My goal is to get my anger under control so he never has to be afraid. Men shouldn’t be afraid of their wives’ tempers. Fear is an unnecessary evil in my honest, often-disagreed-with opinion. In my world, there should be no pain – although often inevitable. I wish for: only love and surrender. So when there is anger, it’s usually because I love something “too much” and end up getting angry that I can’t directly affect a giant massive situation or that no one cares to do anything to change a situation due to selfishness.

The internet has unleased a world of pent-up ignorance. I pretend the dumb emails (and flesh-eating youtube comments from anonymous vultures) don’t exist and try to focus on intelligent conversation. I can’t help but sometimes have a CNN-analyst mentality towards stupid behavior on the internet and how people can hide behind anonymity to be cruel and heartless. Buddha knows, sometimes I’d rather walk away than listen to someone’s opinion. I’ve always been good at closing people off, really. I’ve always been the “successful-loner” type where I love solitude and getting things done by myself. My dad and grandfather are the same way. It’s in our blood. I’m constantly brought off my pedestal, because frankly… I’m trying to learn how to be humble. My fiance is humble. All he does is show respect and bow his head. He’s so quiet that most of the time I ask him to speak up. We’re trying to follow the same spiritual structure so we can believe in something together. My personality struggles with the concept of humility. I’m so used to being on top. I’m so used to being in control and getting my way. It’s hard for me to even pretend liking people when most of the time, I want to center and ground myself and do yoga and go millions of light years away from this galaxy – away from pain, away from humans, away from war, away from selfishness. I’m so tired of it. Can’t we all just agree that John Holmes the Porn Cat is the cutest cat on the world when he’s surrounded by snow?

Then I remember Kuan-Yin (also spelled Quan-Yin)… she was a male deity first, then turned into female. From India to China to Tibet, she is known as two people: male and female. She is a transgendered Goddess for the most-part. You can read about her online. She is full of compassion and mercy and I’m sure, at one time, had to deal with a lot of anger. All my anger is justified, just as many deities. But I want to learn how to not be so angry at people all the time. Really, people sometimes just make me want to lash out – even at strangers. When I get really really angry, I tap into Kuan-Yin and remember her grace and compassion. She loved everyone, and yes, sometimes she loved people too much – sometimes she loved people like they were her children, so she was sometimes like a fertility Goddess. Her nurturing love was sometimes so overwhelming that there is controversy over her type of love – some people think her type of over-compassion can be viewed as pity. I can’t stand the controversy. She was a good person. Why can’t people leave it at that. She was more beautiful than most of the people I know. Her heart was giving and altruistic, not callous and heartless.

I am so grateful for Kuan-Yin. Now that I know her and have been introduced to her, on an astral level… I want to learn how she learned without experiencing pain – or is that possible. Pain is a tricky thing. Some say that one can’t experience love without pain. Others say you can’t have intimacy without pain. Pain happens. It’s how we deal with it and get it under control so it doesn’t control us.

I made a recording recently called “Transgendered Goddess” where Kuan-Yin is introduced to the listener under hypnosis while balancing male and female within the body. On top of that, the listener gets to have a threesome with oneself while seeing both genders within the spirit – be brought to life in front of him. I really hope it’s a success. Everything felt positive, nurturing, loving – and my gut felt good about it. I love Kuan-Yin. I discovered her a couple months ago and have always found her to be a calming, divine spirit.
 
Love
Isabella
xoxoox

Today I wanted to play a game where Maurice and I get to make Kasha happy. I know she’s leaving for Burning Man on Wednesday, and I want her to have better than a good time. So Maurice and I took the day off work and spent it traveling to 20 well-known chains to buy $10 gift cards to give to her for a more enjoyable experience. Ten of them she gets to keep (her choice). The other ten she has to give away to strangers at Burning Man. What better way to make friends than to give a stranger a gift when introducing oneself? Anyway, I really liked the idea of not just giving her gift cards, but giving her some to give to others. What a cool game to play! It’s so exciting to see the look on someone’s face when they receive an unexpected gift (even though the dollar amount might not be very high).

Imagine what an amazing world we could live in – if everyone decided to do a random act of kindness that inspired them to do it to someone else. It reminds me MUCH of the movie Pay it Forward. Fabulous movie by the way. It’s been years since I’ve seen it but it still sticks in my mind. Still follow the same philosophy to this day!

Love
Isabella
xoxoox

For those desire a more personal relationship with Me, you may secretly appreciate this hypnosis session more than new customers. In this very special recording, melt in the beautiful surrender of Goddess Isabella.

This mp3 is designed for listeners who have already developed a relationship with Me over time and are now ready to take a step to take it a level deeper. Like you, I’ve found that showing my vulnerable side can be a very scary place. Trusting someone can be equally hard. That’s why so many people find it hard to be hypnotized. People can get so wrapped up in “trying to surrender” that they get so scared of letting go. I’ve been there. Boy have I been there. In this session, I’d like you to trust the surrender and just fall into it. When you do, you may just discover why people listen to erotic hypnosis in the first place.

If you’re ready to trust me, then you’re ready for this recording. Otherwise… save your money.

Allow My water sign to cool down the magnificent flame above your head. You think you’ve heard it all before. Have you? One thing that remains the same is your insatiable desire to get lost… lost… lost… in the beautiful surrender of My world. Become aroused by the personal memories I insert directly into your cock to make you feel oh sooo good. Feel the hypnotic vibrations in your cock as you realize My mind is stimulating your sperm. I like watching you wriggle with excitement =)

This mp3 comes with two very special treats. One is that it’s designed to give you energetic (possibly even physical) orgasms without touching yourself so your whole body will respond to memories of Me. *sigh* No masturbation required. Now isn’t that hot? The second treat, as if that isn’t the coolest thing in the world, is that during the making of this mp3, slave m and I decided to film a 43 minute (free) behind-the-scenes video to show you the creation process of what goes into an actual hypnosis product. So although this mp3 is only 23 minutes long (a little shorter than most), would you agree I’ve given a beautiful incentive for you to listen to the whole thing? Yes, this is why you love Me.

Format: MP3 Download
Sound Quality: Professional First-Rate
Vocal Sound Effects: No
Prop Sound Effects: No
Soft Background Music: No
Overdubbing Vocals: No
Length: 23 minutes, 46 seconds
Zip File Size: Approx. 20 MB
Price: $35.00

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Yesterday Kasha and I spent nearly 12 or 13 hours (maybe longer with hair, makeup, and wardrobe changes) doing photoshoots for her website. Xaenith came over to watch and slave m helped out with some of the lighting and set design. Over the course of the next couple weeks, I’ll post some pictures of the finished products so you can see how magnificent she looks up close and personal.

In this particular blurry photo, you might notice my leg in the shot (I was trying to show my presence in the photo), as well as Xaenith leaning against the wall watching, as well as Kasha on the bed posing for shots. It isn’t the greatest of photos by any means and you can’t even really make out any faces… but I figured it would be cool to share a part of our 3-experience we had yesterday.

The three of us are learning how to communicate better which I love, which shows me that we can overcome anything. Anything worth having takes time. Sometimes I feel like I’m just a baby and learning how to walk and don’t know anything. Sometimes I feel like I just don’t know… anything. Maybe everything I thought I knew… I really don’t know at all. Just when I think I understand and know people, I get it all wrong.

This is why it continually amazes me that my hypnosis-listeners look up to me. They actually think I say insightful stuff… when the truth is… times like this… I don’t know a damn thing. I’m clueless. About love. About communication. About… aaahAHAHahahhahahahaha…

All I do know is… I made the decision a long time ago that I’m a Goddess, so I refuse to be a ragdoll or a pin cushion for someone else’s pleasure. There are slaves for that. If someone is going to be cold to me, I will either be hurt by it or I will opt out of the relationship. Which leads me to the main question I get wrapped around and tangled with: how many moments of hurt must a person endure before they say: enough is enough – I want out?…… *sigh* I endured one. But it was one of the biggest hurts of my life. Why did it hurt so much, you ask? Because I wanted it to hurt that much. He offered to be my drug, which I needed him to be. And when that drug was taken away from me, it felt like heroin being stripped from my spirituality. Now that I feel I’m sobered up from “the magic of the relationship” – I have an option. I could get addicted to the beautiful, addictive magical spiritual heroin he could give me, which I know good and well is NOT infinite and feel good while it lasts…. and then experience the horrible chills of the “come down” experience when I realize I need more time with him than he has time he’s willing to commit. *sigh*

So for the time being, I’ve made the decision to be without the drug. And goddammit it was one of the most memorable experiences I ever had. The way he looked at me WAS the drug. That’s ALL it was. It certainly wasn’t physical at all. I got lost in his eyes and they’d turn me into dust, literally. And he was a boy, Jesus Christ. A boy.

I’m a hopeful romantic. I can’t help but hope for magic all the time. It’s all I think about, really. And people wonder why I prefer girls. Maybe it’s best to stick with what I know best… women.

Love
Isabella
xoxoox

A part of me wants to write really sappy things, but actions speak louder than words. Over the course of our relationship, I’ve invested my time and energy into sharing a part of myself in ways I never have to anyone before. I got Xaenith a cool black Fender guitar… and he wrote me a song and serenaded me with it. He plays beautifully, and I’ve had a guitar fetish for as long as I can remember (piano too). I also got him a cool psychedelic guitar pick which has a string around it for wearing around the neck, which he wears every day. It’s a constant visual reminder of our budding relationship. He drew an awesome dragon phoenix (a symbol of the dragon-bird tattoo on his arm), and gave it to me as a gift, which I placed on my pagan altar in the Lea~Koa room. For the past week or so, I’ve been creating him a staff (which I just finished). It was initially a long, tall, thick tree branch he found in my backyard and over time, I sanded it down, painted it, then coated it with several coats of polyurethane. It looks so cool now! I’m tempted to share a photo of it, but I think I’ll wait until he comes back over and take a picture of him holding it. He loved it so much… and just seeing his appreciation for the time that went into it was totally worth it.

I must admit, I’m feeling particularly cautious talking about our relationship in this public journal just for the reason that… in the past… talking about my relationships tended to lead to customers either getting jealous or envious and/or feeling less connected to me (which blows my mind because when I feel love, it makes my recordings that much more impressive). My impression is that if I’m in love, some customers will no longer feel they “have a chance” with me, and therefore leave. I certainly hope that’s not the case, because my search for love has been a lifelong process and the struggles have been so vast that even the smallest ounce of success outweighs it all. Words cannot describe the feelings that have devoured me. The only reason I choose to disclose what’s going on in my personal life in this way… is because… this is why people read my journal. Some people actually get closer to me when they know what’s going on. If I feel any subject matter is too private, I’ll post it in my other, more private blog – which he is totally ok with. In the meantime, I hope that any posts I make regarding this relationship will bring me closer to all of you, which is my goal in doing so. If all I had was success, I’d be boring. When it comes to love, it’s been a roller coaster ride, often with lots of falls and dips. I think many people can identify with the longing, the waiting, the searching, and the strategies involved in the finding and strengthening a love relationship.

Things I like about us:
We both like to perform magic spells
We both like to wear punk goth stuff and have fascinations for skulls, dragons, video games.
We both embrace the dark side as well as the white side.
We both have tattoos in the same places
We both enjoy guitar, heavy metal, music, and even soft new age world music
We both have the same mutual friends and have hung out every week since December
We are telepathically and psychically in tune with one another
We are both sculpting our bodies and fine tuning them
We both love shamanism, healing, and hypnosis
We smoke the same type of American Spirit cigarettes
We both enjoy intimate cuddling and observing the universe’s connections
We both know how important communication is, and strive to ALWAYS communicate
We trust each other on a level that surprises both of us
We both love dragons, spirit animals, and exotic entities
We love and know the same people who love us back
We both love each other and have the same vision of our relationship
We both have excellent reputations – in and out of the bedroom
We embrace each other’s differences and similarities
We learn from each other’s strengths to fortify our weaknesses
We both think we’re hot and have a high level of confidence without being pompous or arrogant
We both think girls are incredibly hot and sexy
We both think boys can be hot, given it’s the right kind of rare man
We’re mutually equal to one another

…. I could go on forever, but those things, mentioned above, really matter to me.

Ironically, we haven’t even kissed yet. It only increases the energy between us. On multiple occasions, our lips have been an inch away and instead of kissing, we fucked with our eyes. Heaven.

Love
Isabella
xoxooxx

P.S. We had an enlightening discussion last night about how he definitely wants to jump off the skyscraper with me (in a sexual way), and can’t wait to be the first guy I’ve been with in years. In the meantime, he still wants to mix the mud, to make the bricks, to make the foundation first. We have the same vision, which is awesome… I am no longer in a hurry to jump because it’s so much fun mixing the foundation. I love the way we tease each other, as part of the buildup. All I needed to know is that we were seeing the same skyscraper as part of our vision, and WOW we totally agree. In fact, he totally envisions us, within a year from now when our bodies are sculpted precisely how we crafted them, as being a power couple. Our lights are already shining, but a year from now, we could power a whole neighborhood. That’s so hot.

Here’s a photo taken last night in the Lea~Koa room:

It still, though, however… does not appease the horniness.

I suppose the next best thing to being with a partner is… listening to my own recordings. I can do that. In fact, you all should expect all my future recordings (if they’re not already) to be intensely personal.

Love
Isabella
xoxoxoox

Sometimes at home, I struggle to maintain an image of excellence. Most times I succeed, but sometimes I fail. When I’m online, I have time to think before I write, which helps portray an image of excellence. So I can see why people are drawn to me online. There are times I wonder if the same people who are attracted to me online would equally be interested in me in real life. I crave connection all the time, and although I am in several current relationships right now (which is a big deal in itself)… I also want personal relationships with my clients. Most of my friends all agree it’s not the smartest idea to get too personal with clients. And I suppose anyone who reads this would also agree with it as well. Business relationships turning personal, in general, is a bad idea. But from a completely different perspective, sometimes I feel I’m willing to lose a little money just to connect to someone who puts me on such a big pedestal. There’s something magical about being worshipped in real life. The thing is… there are very few customers out there who have shared such personal things about themselves that make me trust them to invite them into my lives. Trust is my number one priority in all given relationships with people. Without it, there is nothing but a constant building of human connection. Sometimes I wish I knew more local people in which I could cuddle with. I have a couple cuddle partners but they’re involved sexually with other people and often times I feel I’m not enough. It’s both challenging as well as satisfying. I feel so many things.

The good news is that slave m is moving in with me in about 3 weeks which will be nice because I miss having a slave to beat. He brings the best out of me. I miss him very much. Our relationship is solid… the only thing that isn’t is our location. The constant moving in and moving out is aggravating at best. But when we’re together, our love is undeniable.

Also, I’ve lost 13 of the 15 pounds I’ve gained. The weight reduction is working. I like this very much.

I long for so many things. The anticipation of longing is often the worst part. I miss deidre. I miss her so much. I rarely talk about her in my journal because for the longest time she’s been connected in other intimate relationships and I didn’t want to be a jeopardizing factor. As long as she’s happy, I’m happy… which is why I’ve supported all of her previous relationships. Now she’s single, and I can’t help but think about her every waking minute of every day. I told myself the first day I met her that I’d wait up to 7 years to be with her. I’m still willing to wait another 5 and a half years. My gut tells me that one day we’ll be together. But are my instincts right? I hate the longing. I hate developing strategies sometimes. Patience is a virtue, I know. All I really want is to snuggle with her watching television. At this very moment, that’s all I want. Just to touch her. I miss her.

My relationships with Kasha and Xaenith are blossoming. It’s surreal. It’s a learning process. And my roommate Jenna is a bit mad at me for developing a relationship with Xaenith since she’s dating him too (actually so is Kasha). Jenna even hung up on me today which was maddening. This is why monogomous people shouldn’t be in poly relationships. Either shit or get off the pot, but don’t tell me to wait for you to decide. I don’t play that game. It hurt a great deal to be told, “I can’t believe he’d rather be with a lesbian than with me.” It was as though I was completely stereotyped in the worst possible way. I can self-identify as being a lesbian and still have intimate connections with men. I am attracted to mostly women, but many previous partners can testify that I have had long-lasting profound relationships with men. It just takes the right kind of man. *sigh* I better stop. What I really want to say is probably best discussed in my more private blog to avoid the hurting of feelings.

It’s easy to suppose that some people like me because I’m approachable and human, but also a Goddess. The problem is… sometimes I can be so realistically human that people see a new perspective of who I am. All it leads to is a deeper connection. Maybe that’s why I’m so grateful I have the customers I have. They’re friends, really. It’s beautiful. I’m thankful to be considered important in some people’s lives the way I consider some people important in mine.

I want to be in a relationship where I am my partner’s #1 and my partner is my #1. My mind is open to many ideas and I’ll know it when it lands in my lap. But I do long. I long for love in ways no one will ever know. I am in love with love and I know it. There are many different paths to love. I just want the destination.

Love
Isabella
xoxooxxo

This 2-girl romantic erotic hypnosis recording is designed for those who appreciate the hypnotic language of love. You may agree with me when I say that it is incredibly hot when two languages are spoken, when both talking about sex, love, and intimacy. For years, I envisioned creating an mp3 like this, so finally completing this is a dream come true. I do hope it appeals to you on a deep, unconscious level to stimulate not only your body, but your mind as well. This bilingual mp3 is spoken in English and translated in Spanish for a truly mind-altering experience. You may recognize the voice of my friend, Jenna, translating my words into Spanish.

Fall into a spiral of colors, blending into the shape of love and connection, whirling and swimming in hypnotic ecstacy… as if you’re sleeping on clouds, and then falling deeper into a tunnel that leads you into the long-awaited… nothingness.

Be sexually and spiritually aroused by a romantic Spanish guitar strumming elegant strings, Rumi-inspired hypnotic poetry, and the romanticism of Español, overlapping with whispered English, flavored words that weave into one another until it need not matter which language is deepening your trance.

Allow yourself to be pulled into trance by pretty, feminine voices that arouse and entice you. This is recording was designed to be gender-neutral, which means men and women can equally achieve trance and orgasm.

Fetishes Include:
Erotic hypnosis, romanticism, bilingual, English, Spanish, erotic triggers, hypnotic deepeners, orgasm command, love and addiction, creative visualizations, spirals, patterns, tunnels, love fetish, beauty, connection, intimacy, and erotic flirtation and teasing.

Format: MP3 Download
Sound Quality: Professional First-Rate
Vocal Sound Effects: Yes
Prop Sound Effects: No
Soft Background Music: Yes
Overdubbing Vocals: Yes
Length: 46 minutes
Zip File Size: Approx. 43 MB
Price: $35.00

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